Failed attempt.

Here, at Kota Bharu, still cannot find any job, not that there’s no job, but I didn’t achieve their requirement, especially the criteria must possess at least 1 year experience in related field or have own transport/ own driving license. That hit me hard, I feel like falling from my seat. Hate it!

First interview, I went and filled the details on the paper. The clerk there was actually watching drama, I am very sure as the sound of desktop was very loud, even I was quite far from her. Then I handed the paper to her and she walked into a small office, I guess that is her boss, OMG the door didn’t close so her boss actually can hear her, but she didn’t have fear for the boss? Great!

Then I entered the room, it was very small office, and she asked me to have a seat, I did. She was tanned with a curly brown dyed hair, I wasn’t sure if she is a Chinese or Malay, but she looked like Malay to me. Maybe she is a Malay as she speaks in Malay. And she asked about working experience, and I startled. Of course I don’t have any working experience, I’m just graduated my high school and I thought I told her that in the phone!

She grimaced in paused, reading the details about me, but I’m sure she was thinking the dialogue to tell me I didn’t met her requirement, and I am the one who speaks, I said I’m sorry for wasting her time and I could see her relieved, apologize for the inconvenient and I left. A failed interview experience!

In the following days, I walked around my house and looking for any ‘help wanted’ sign, but none of these company or shop require workers at this moment. Sigh! And I searched the internet and did found a few jobs, so I called and sent my resume but still, there’re no hope, no a phone from them.

Today, I’m loosing my patience so I called one company and asked about job vacancy. To my surprise, they did receive my resume, how happy am I! But then, she said, “I read your resume and you really have good result, are you sure you want this job?” Then I realized they wanted to hire a full time, so I apologize and shut the phone down. Another failed attempt.

Adding up with many phone calls I made every day, it appears to me which I receive many decline from them, almost all of them! Sigh~ Finding job is worst than studying, how I wish to just return back to old days where I don’t have to worry about future. I really need a job, because I have to afford a laptop myself, and also my daily expenses in home, talking about the electric bill!

Today is the first day of new year, so I hope I can get a job in this month, not wasting my time in home doing nothing. As for these few unemployed days, I stuffed myself with watching movies and cooking video on youtube, and I learnt to cook many recipes, omelet, pancakes and easy menu. It was very fun! At least, I got something to do in my home.

Time to search jobs, and I hope every single human in this world have a great day and happy new year!

Updated.

It’s been almost two weeks since the STPM ends, and my life is very dull. Never thought the life would be so hollow, it’s worst than after SPM, I don’t know why, but maybe my view had changed for this one and a half year life. Or maybe I’d matured in some ways which I had to. Silly though.

I’m seriously want to find a job, but I had to see my own ability, how to get there, what is the working area like, did I have what they need me as an employee of them, etc etc etc… To run from all these thought, I flooded myself by watching movies online, buffering is the most terrible part, as if the time slow down, a second becomes an hour, argh! How I wish to build a satellite beside my home!

CNY, another ‘cheerful’ event, if somebody could see how sick am I, I’ll praise him or her to the top of the world! And especially to someone, a mongrel out there, if you think your university life is so good, then kept it to yourself, don’t brag until the whole world knows about it, you ain’t in Howard or Cambridge, just a tiny college. And to a lewd woman, if you think you are very beautiful, then you are way too wrong, there are thousands of people who are better looking than you, so please keep yourself in a box, I’m being polite to you now.

Yes, I don’t like you, and this is my blog and I don’t ask for your opinion after you read all the things I wrote, keep your mouth shut and close this page. I’m being too courteous to you people until you started to step onto my head, you know what, DAMN IT! My patience has it own limit and I’m telling you, I’m not who you think you can manipulate easily, keep your dirty trick away before I blew your brain off your head.

If you think your life is better than mine now, then I’m telling you here, mine will be better than yours in future, bitter first, sweet later. I have seen many things in my life which few people get to see it in my age, and I’m wretched. I don’t care how people criticize me, I am who I am, and I don’t put you in my eyes even you got places in others heart, you are a mongrel to me, always!

How relieve am I to say it out loud, it feels good. Enjoy the song ‘Decoy’ by Paramore, if you know how eager am I to sing it right onto your face!