Updated.

It’s been almost two weeks since the STPM ends, and my life is very dull. Never thought the life would be so hollow, it’s worst than after SPM, I don’t know why, but maybe my view had changed for this one and a half year life. Or maybe I’d matured in some ways which I had to. Silly though.

I’m seriously want to find a job, but I had to see my own ability, how to get there, what is the working area like, did I have what they need me as an employee of them, etc etc etc… To run from all these thought, I flooded myself by watching movies online, buffering is the most terrible part, as if the time slow down, a second becomes an hour, argh! How I wish to build a satellite beside my home!

CNY, another ‘cheerful’ event, if somebody could see how sick am I, I’ll praise him or her to the top of the world! And especially to someone, a mongrel out there, if you think your university life is so good, then kept it to yourself, don’t brag until the whole world knows about it, you ain’t in Howard or Cambridge, just a tiny college. And to a lewd woman, if you think you are very beautiful, then you are way too wrong, there are thousands of people who are better looking than you, so please keep yourself in a box, I’m being polite to you now.

Yes, I don’t like you, and this is my blog and I don’t ask for your opinion after you read all the things I wrote, keep your mouth shut and close this page. I’m being too courteous to you people until you started to step onto my head, you know what, DAMN IT! My patience has it own limit and I’m telling you, I’m not who you think you can manipulate easily, keep your dirty trick away before I blew your brain off your head.

If you think your life is better than mine now, then I’m telling you here, mine will be better than yours in future, bitter first, sweet later. I have seen many things in my life which few people get to see it in my age, and I’m wretched. I don’t care how people criticize me, I am who I am, and I don’t put you in my eyes even you got places in others heart, you are a mongrel to me, always!

How relieve am I to say it out loud, it feels good. Enjoy the song ‘Decoy’ by Paramore, if you know how eager am I to sing it right onto your face!