I've tried my best!

I don’t know why but I can’t find any jobs or people who want to hire me, all they want is permanent workers! I hate this very much. Then the bread and cake shop opposite my house wanted to hire a cashier, I was very happy, when I called, she said it was occupied! Damn it! Then my mom thought I’m not trying my best to find a job, what the hell! I’m trying so hard yet she accused me for doing nothing, crap!

There’s a lot of job out there, but nobody want to hire me, is that my fault to be blame? I’m frustrated too, I really need to earn money, to buy laptop, to sustain my life in university, because my mother told me, she will be fair to our sisters, since my oldest sister, or more accurately, after my father passed away, my sisters didn’t asked money from my mom to live their university life, so do I.

The employer wouldn’t know how bad I wish to beg them have mercy in me, but know, they will never listen to these crap. The days in home were very hard for me, making me felt useless, when my mom scolded me, it hurt badly, but there’s nothing I can do, if 2012 is the year where the world ends, I pray hardly so that day came as soon as possible, so I don’t have to suffer anymore.

I don’t blame my mom, because she cares for me, but she can’t be selfish, she need to be fair to all her daughters. I had a very tough life, and I knew out there somewhere, there are others who suffer tougher fate than me, so I’m contented. After a hurricane, comes a rainbow. On day, my life will burn like firework, spread across the sky, brightly and beautiful.