最近真的很累了，被人怀疑的感觉真难受，信任这一关，真的很难过。
呆在店里的这几周，我看见了不同的人，尤其是那些顾客，有些真的很难搞，不是欠钱不要还，就是上门大骂我一番，有时候，真的就想立刻离职，告诉老板，我不干了！老板整天不在店，现在还有怪叔叔帮忙，等到下个月他不干时，我才真倒霉......
接下来，就是烦恼要进大学的事，成绩烂透底，没奖学金，连要的科目也达不到要求，简直是绝望，回想自己拼死拼活的努力，最后换来的不是血汗成果，而是烂水果，心里很不忿，但我又能如何，只能怨自己不够努力，自己笨。
有些人，你看他不起眼，但其实他很厉害，懂的很多，虽然书读不多，但知识渊博，经验丰富，可人就是有缺点，他不会伸出援手，尤其当他认为那是你的事时；他不喜欢教人，总爱叫你先学习，不懂再问，他没耐心，问多会烦会发脾气，除非他搭讪你，问什么他都教，忍耐度扩大。这就是从我的观点描述的怪叔叔......
我不曾相信星座，可是自从遇见湘妮，我开始翻看这些东西，魔蝎和处女，确实很合！我和她谈得来，想法一致，互相信任，最感动就是，当钱不见时，她第一个说：“我相信你！”其实我需要的，不是一大堆有的没的分析，而是一句简单的“我相信你”，就够了。她跟我三姐平岁，为人幽默活泼，有她在，我一定不寂寞不孤独，至少我不是空气了。
小的淑慧外表让人觉得他很嚣张，不过认识她后，你会改观！她没表面上的冷漠，而是活泼可爱又疯癫贪玩的丫头。她喜欢玩电脑网络游戏，声音走调但喜欢唱歌，而且这世上，她只有两个听众，她的男朋友和我本人了。她吵时会很吵，静下来时会有很奇怪的气氛，真的不知她静或吵之间，哪个状况才好？
今天就到此为止，我要找周公去了，晚安......
Friday, March 23, 2012
Saturday, March 17, 2012
I'm not a thief!!!
How could that be logical? That is what I'm thinking in my mind when people don't believe me. What happened really got a bang towards head and I was like an empty bottle, lost my balance and crushed onto the floor. Falling into pieces, bits by bits...
The money in the registration form clapping together in the file were gone?!? How did that happened? I didn't even noticed, until Tracy wanted to claim the money. Three registration papers without upfront payment, I am the one who receive the money, sign my signature on it, and that make me a suspect? Even worst, I thought those people who I claimed to be "friends" who were supposed to stay at my side and back up me, turned their back on me?!? Just because I opened the shop at 9.45am, closed the door at 10pm, alone in the shop for morning shift, sit at the counter doing payment and admin work, which made me a perfect crime suspect?
Yes, I'm not very advanced in my work, but that doesn't make me forget about my status, all my hardwork just varnished into thin air, all the friendship just suddenly sink into the bottom of ocean where nothing but darkness waiting below? I always gave myself a high rank in trust worthy among working mates, but what I heard today was an atomic bomb right onto my face! Not even one people said they trusted me but Xiang Nee. NOBODY! Well, this is what I get when I gave up my off day just to come and opened the shop at morning, get scolded by my mom and sisters for not taking my result just because shop no people guard, this is what I get?!?
Felt unappreciated, but not trusted by people is worst than everything, after all these hardwork, after all these days spending time together, after all these sacrificing, what I get is just some crap and hurting words? Damn it, I am quitting this job if I am the one who had to pay the lost money, I'm innocent!!! Gratefully thank to Sheryn for the consolation as well as Xiang Nee who is the first and only one who said in out loud that I'm innocent.
The money in the registration form clapping together in the file were gone?!? How did that happened? I didn't even noticed, until Tracy wanted to claim the money. Three registration papers without upfront payment, I am the one who receive the money, sign my signature on it, and that make me a suspect? Even worst, I thought those people who I claimed to be "friends" who were supposed to stay at my side and back up me, turned their back on me?!? Just because I opened the shop at 9.45am, closed the door at 10pm, alone in the shop for morning shift, sit at the counter doing payment and admin work, which made me a perfect crime suspect?
Yes, I'm not very advanced in my work, but that doesn't make me forget about my status, all my hardwork just varnished into thin air, all the friendship just suddenly sink into the bottom of ocean where nothing but darkness waiting below? I always gave myself a high rank in trust worthy among working mates, but what I heard today was an atomic bomb right onto my face! Not even one people said they trusted me but Xiang Nee. NOBODY! Well, this is what I get when I gave up my off day just to come and opened the shop at morning, get scolded by my mom and sisters for not taking my result just because shop no people guard, this is what I get?!?
Felt unappreciated, but not trusted by people is worst than everything, after all these hardwork, after all these days spending time together, after all these sacrificing, what I get is just some crap and hurting words? Damn it, I am quitting this job if I am the one who had to pay the lost money, I'm innocent!!! Gratefully thank to Sheryn for the consolation as well as Xiang Nee who is the first and only one who said in out loud that I'm innocent.
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
I'm sooooo angry!
For all these days I've tried my best to avoid any unwanted argue with him, but he just couldn't let me through! Okay, if he wants to go against Ms Chua, fine, you can have your way, but not by picking my fault as well when I'm doing job for her! It's not just about Ms Chua, but the attitude he used to treat me. Yes, I admit I help Ms Chua did some paperwork, but all those papers and tables are meant for MontiJaya as well, not for P1 company! I've put all my effort into this company but in the end, instead of appreciating my work, he insulted me in a way which I never expect he will do!
I'm human being, I know when to call stop, I'm not a soft toy where people can play me the way they wanted! Yes, I said I would help her with all the work which aren't mine at all, but those piles of nonsense paper he called are all vital procedures where our company needed to become more systematic. I'm better than him, doing nothing at the office but wanted a high salary, in the end, he chosen the money and decided to walk away from the company just because of his salary get reduced in way where he didn't expected!
I don't want to argue with him, neither do I want to talk with him, he is so mean towards me, I never harm him in any way but he just insult me with those words?!? Damn it.
I'm human being, I know when to call stop, I'm not a soft toy where people can play me the way they wanted! Yes, I said I would help her with all the work which aren't mine at all, but those piles of nonsense paper he called are all vital procedures where our company needed to become more systematic. I'm better than him, doing nothing at the office but wanted a high salary, in the end, he chosen the money and decided to walk away from the company just because of his salary get reduced in way where he didn't expected!
I don't want to argue with him, neither do I want to talk with him, he is so mean towards me, I never harm him in any way but he just insult me with those words?!? Damn it.
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